We celebrated his bday, a low key one at my place...we resolved our matters by choosing to stay low-profile till the day/time when we both ready to declare our commitment. I made bihun goreng, something malaysian yet a simple, light dish.
We also agreed on focusing more on pursuing with our career endeavours...me with my PhD especially....
These are the horoscope forecast for both of us, obtained from a fwded email from a fren of mine:
Cancer in 2005 - Balance
Finding a balance between your personal and professional lives may be one of the year's strongest challenges. For the most part, your outward life this year will go in fits and starts - alternating periods of intense activity with times of welcome rest. Enjoy the restful periods when you can. The active ones will be hectic! You'll be making radical changes in your work habits, but you'll be a lot happier for it, and in the end you'll know it was worth it. Your love life is full, and any dissatisfaction with career and money matters fades into the background. By the end of 2005, you'll feel more confident, more determined, and far more capable of making the mountains come to you!
Capricorn in 2005 - Resolution
You've got plenty of lucky breaks headed your way in 2005, friend Capricorn. The long awaited relief you've needed in your love life is around the corner, and by the end of the year you will feel much clearer about your partnerships in general. Financially, it could be a lean year, although some advance planning can help you weather the storm. Your career opportunities will expand exponentially, and you're likely to change jobs or positions this year. At times, the pressure on your job and home life may seem unbearable, but rest assured you will come through this stronger - and wiser - than ever, as more is revealed and resolved in 2005.
There is no point on talking/sharing much of our relationship to just anyone...it's better for us to keep on strengthening our relationship, against all the odds n obstacles....it's not like i'm trying to make it totally secretive from my family, it's for the sake of our own survival...let it be an intra-relation till we r ready for the family involvement. IN other words, it's between me and him to manage our own equilibrium so to speak. All i can do is to keep on praying to allah that things will be fine so long as our love remains strong.
Oh well...those ups and downs....challenges before we cud settle down....what with different countries, culture and so on...the only thing that really holding us is our love. Not that i am so blindly in love or anything like that....i am keeping meself open-minded and open-hearted and at the same time concentrating on my own pursuits. Basically, it's all about giving each other emotional supports. I dunno what else to explain to my parents except to just avoid talking/discussing about it for this timebeing. I've been pondering about it from all aspects of view and my last resort is to sort things out between me n him. We just have to really trust each other and open up.
That xmas week really was another turning point in my relationship...him screwed it up by not contacting me at all during my mum's presence have caused all the speculations unnecessary.....hence the low profile affair.
Could it be any more complicated than this, god knows.....better still, there are more important things to be taken care of but nevertheless, it'll be part of our challenges/obstacles to test our love for each other....how far can we endure all that, time will tell....nothing comes easy, so they say....no guts, no glory.
